Unbearable Pain: A Personal Battle With the Mysterious Pain of Cluster Headaches

It was a dreary weekday morning in September 2016. I was working as a educator, trying to settle a new class, when a sharp pain bloomed behind my right eye. Then came quick shocks, similar to lightning bolts. As the school day came and went, the discomfort eased and then returned with greater force. Multiple times that day I left a teaching assistant with activities and hurried to the staff bathroom to douse my face with cool water. I tried ibuprofen, but the agony remained unrelenting.

The headaches appeared frequently that autumn, and once more in the spring, soon establishing an annual cycle. The autumn months were the worst, then the late winter. I could anticipate the pattern: aura in the shower, early twinges on the train, full-blown pain in the classroom by mid-morning. In 2019, a doctor finally sent me to a specialist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headaches.

Cluster headaches often begin with severe discomfort behind one eye that persists up to three hours.

About one in 1,000 people suffer by the condition, and men are more frequently affected. Attacks usually start with sudden, excruciating agony focused on one eye that peaks within minutes and continues for up to three hours. Attacks occur in cycles, daily or multiple times a day, and are associated with red or watery eyes, drooping eyelids or face sweating. I have the episodic form, which arrives in periodic cycles; others have chronic attacks, characterized by the lack of extended pain-free periods.

What connects sufferers is the severity. One research paper scored the pain at 9.7 10, higher than bone fractures or other conditions. A separate found a significant percentage of cluster patients reported suicidal thoughts during attacks; the figure fell to four percent when they were pain-free.

One patient, 74, a chronic sufferer from Wales, isn't surprised. Her episodes started when she was two. “I would throw myself on the floor and bang my head. That was put down to being a difficult child,” she says. Her symptoms deteriorated through childhood. Alcohol in her teens, like many triggers, made things more intense. After drinking sherry at her graduation party, she remembers hardly being able to see on the bus home.

Her family often mistook her attacks as intoxicated episodes. Understanding finally came from her parent and then from her husband, Rod. “I was very lucky to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs found office work after relocating, but often hid her illness. She was fired from one job, in part due to absences during attacks. Her definitive diagnosis came in the early 2000s at a specialist hospital.

Still, the inability to organize life around unpredictable pain took its toll. She particularly disliked being unable to plan social events, being seen as unreliable as a colleague, and even having to be looked after by her children during the incapacitation caused by the most severe episodes. “It steals from you of the small freedoms we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She remembers winning tickets for a major concert, only to have an episode inside a facility.


Headaches have been described across history. “The first description of headache comes by way of the Mesopotamians in antiquity,” write experts in a book on the topic. They linked the ailment to an evil spirit who attacked his victims' heads.

Ancient healing records propose bizarre remedies for what some observers would describe as a migraine. In the medieval times, severe headache was recognised as a distinct condition, with therapies ranging from herbal concoctions to other, more folk remedies.

It was a European doctor who provided the initial comprehensive description of a cluster headache. In his medical observations, he speaks of a patient “suffering with a very intense headache happening and vanishing daily at specific hours”.

The disorder were only officially recognised by international medical committees in 1988. From the 1960s to the late 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a issue with a key artery which supplies blood to the brain. Leading experts in treating the disorder explain this.

In the late 1990s, scientists released the findings of a study for which they had triggered attacks in patients and monitored the attacks in a brain scanner. The data, published in a major journal, showed increased activity of the hypothalamus, which is in charge for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in discomfort, and a deactivation when they felt better.

In spite of such progress, diagnosis remains delayed. Jamie Charteris's symptoms began in 1986 and felt like “a balloon being blown up behind my one eye”. Doctors thought he had sinus problems; he had multiple operations before eventually being correctly identified in recently, after a physician researched his symptoms.

Specialists say delays in diagnosing and managing occur because patients are seldom seen during an episode. “You're tired and low, but not in agony,” one says. He proceeds by eliminating other common head pain conditions, such as migraine, before diagnosing cluster headaches. A thorough patient history is essential: on which side do signs appear? For how long? What time of year? Are there triggers, such as certain foods? Certain features such as tearing, drooping eyelids and nasal congestion help confirm cluster headaches. Once diagnosed, patients may be sent to dedicated centers. But a lot of first arrive to emergency rooms or are given inadequate therapies.

Dorothy Chapman, 78, has suffered from cluster headaches for most of her adult life, although she hasn't had an attack since 2016. When she was in her 20s, she had her teeth pulled because dentists misinterpreted her symptoms. She believes the dental profession still need greater education. When a sufferer sought help from a charity, it was she who responded. I remember calling a helpline during an bout in 2021; a calm advisor talked them through oxygen therapy and medication until the attack eased.

National guidance on treatment advise that sufferers are offered high-flow oxygen therapy and/or a specific drug delivered by nasal spray. No tablets or strong analgesics should be used. Prophylactic choices include a blood pressure medication, which reportedly helps manage the attacks of well-known individuals.

But consultant specialists argue the guidance need revising to reflect a more defined treatment process and help GPs avoid misprescribing. For periodic patients, the treatment window is critical: “The length of the cycle dictates the treatment.” Short bouts with occasional episodes are managed with abortive therapy alone. Longer or more intense periods require preventives such as verapamil, sometimes paired with corticosteroids. A significant number of patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a cycle – an procedure into the side of the skull where the pain is that decreases nerve signals.

The national guidelines need updating to reflect a
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